Monday, 21 April 2008
i feel like blogging today..i donnoe y...haix. i felt reali sad...first of all i tink u no more care abt me..totally for ur info!!! u might find it the same but not to me... seriously...today is the FIRST TIME u din send me home...i don mind actuali.. but i thought u tired n sleepy so i said its ok..u can go home..but i called jus now u said u jus reach home..i donnoe ah!!! if u reali don want me at all jus tell me..i will leave u alone..pls stop making me feel so miserable...i rather u tell me now den keep it to urself..btw i got so much to tell u but i don tink u want to hear ani of it...one of the things i want u to noe will make u hapi but... haix forget it.. reali.. jus forget it... tis month u r totally change!! u r no more like the loving guy use to noe..i alwaes waited for ur call, i want to tok to u but u said sometin abt bill... so i being understanding n said its ok.. how abt msg?? don tok abt when ur pp8 low, i was referin when its not low...u last tyme would tell me everytin n wont keep aniting from me...i like how u r dat tyme but now i don even wanna noe tok abt it.. btw if u r reading tis n u find all this is jus a crap jus stop reading...i jus wanna blog how i reali felt...u noe as i was blogging.. i cried... argh.. telling u wont make ani difference...
now even when ur fren msg u, u would cover it n wouldnt let me c.. fyi i don intend to c ur msg don wori even if its a girl!!! u cover2 jus make me feels so uncomfortable...do u noe how it feels...is it wrong for me even to noe u msg wif hu bukannye i halang or wat...last tyme when we tok on the phone u jus don want to put down the phone but now when i called u would tink twice whether u wanna pick up dat call or not and when u pick up, u jus cant wait to put down the phone...do u noe how it feels... today i sick..but u don seems to care.. u don even bother to msg me or call me even for few a seconds to ask if i'm alrite ke, eat medicine ke..haix... i jus cant believe it....omg!! i'm so pissd off...exams are jus around the corner but instead i wori abt tis kind of stuff...
now its the important part!!! do u reali love me n wants to be wif me...jus like wat u said in january.... so all along wat u said before is not true at all... u ask me to love u but when i alrdy love u, u treat me like this...wat actuali u want nie!! if not jus tell me straight dat u don want me animore.. i will try to accept the fact... pls i don want to be hurt deeply like before... i rather u tell me now den later.... i tot u were different from HIM jus like wat u said but now u proof me wrong... i jus don understands u.. at first u will be like normal n seconds later u jus change...i reali donnoe wat else to blog...i donnoe why we turn out like this..but seriously.. i'm so confused.... at first u will alwaes msg me n i reali meant it alwaes but now not a single msg from u...hmph!! at first u want to get serious, when i serious u like this.. seriously ah.. i'm so confused...argh!!! watever... the main thing is jus do u still wanna continue wif me or even do u still love me at all!!!... jus remember once u lose it, it might not come back...jus like DAT GUY who i gives so much chances and at last..haix.. i don even wanna think abt it.. it hurts so damn fucking much...now if i'm reali hurt again i donnoe wat to say...i might jus become a different person n reali different dat u don even believe it was me...i hope u wont be like HIM...btw did i actuali did sometin wrong dat u have change till like this..huh?? i wonder!!!! haix love jus totally argh!!!
today me n my twin sister sick..so coincidence we both sick seh...hehe... so irritating ppl keep asking y we both and blablabla.....first period poa, do alil den we went to toilet.. we slp in th toilet for awhile lols...we came back to class a few minutes before bell ring.. den we rest.. maths period teacher din come.. trying to slp but cannot.. donnoe y...haix.. was waiting for his msg.. hmm...den mt period.. when to class... otw to mt clss adib distrube me.. argh!! irritating punye kambing...lols... den when recess time saw him n honestly i was quite hapi..but din reali show it lar...eat my medicine n blablabla... den after recess its physics.. i slp all the way till 15 mins before school ends... so shiok i tell u...hehe.. but i was not feelin well dats y lar... kecian tasha nak slp but cannot...nvm tasha i help u slp....hehe...after school we waited for him den blablabla.. malas wanna long2 story..hees.. reach home.. bath, pray den slp till 8 plus... from morning i haven eat aniting..except for a piece of pathetic bread n dat was like at 9 plus in the morning...i don feel hungry.. not at all... no appetite i tink.. even if i din eat ppl oso don care...who cares ryte especially nur atikah... hmm.. dats all for now..haix.... Labels: thanx for everytin u did for me especially ur care n concern before this.. i appreciate it so much...sob2....
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